April Love - Day 21

Yesterday was a hard day for me. I broke up with my boyfriend of 3 years 11 months and 1 week. It wasn't an easy decision. We've been having troubles since June last year, we even broke it off twice since then. I felt as if I had to carry on trying to save our relationship, until this last month. I realised that no matter how hard I try to fix it or control it, if something isn't working, it is just not going to work. 

That realisation hit me like a ton of bricks, I don't like to face defeat. But I was losing myself in trying to fix my relationship, I had to do it. It is rather a coincidence that it happened during the April Love challenge because I actually showed self-love (I don't tend to love myself, I'm more of the beat yourself up kind). 

I know I will be okay, but just not today.

Here are some memories from my first love. I made this video on Valentines Day this year.